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Consequences

Son,

My heart aches for you. I’m smothered in guilt. What world have I brought you into? Its spring has been wound too tight and you are vulnerable in ways that I cannot protect should the world go awry.

Deep down I feel it. Too many dominoes are falling. 

We inherit blessings and curses from our families and spend our lives dancing with them. Sometimes the dance is graceful, sometimes it’s a mosh pit. There are no wallflowers. Everyone dances.

One of the curses I received is the ability to catastrophize. It puts one in a constant state of worst-case scenario calculation. It’s a distortion. Now, add that predisposition to an ever-growing surreal cultural landscape and hope is a flashlight on a moonless night.

What’s real? What’s fact? What’s truth? Trying to navigate is a feat miraculous.

It is a time of fear, upheaval, and unwinding that wears a lead coat of uncertainty, son. A long road lead to here but September 11, 2001 was a tipping point, not only for America. It was a shock that we replayed over and over until the images seared the mind of every soul.

Then came the rationalizations and consensus, much in secret. Choices were made, principles sacrificed. Agendas freed, opportunities exploited, countries felled. Blind revenge-patriotism burned across the land, seeding a potent shift. The police were armed for war. Money fell from the sky and we gorged.

A trajectory was set.

Then the truth cracked wide. A financial crisis too massive to contain ripped through the make-believe and stabbed with a blade enchanted by pervasive fraud and greed, it’s injury mortal. The future we pillaged to build reality roosted on the present. The world’s diseased heart became a void.

More rationalizations. Choices. Moral sacrifices. In the panic, denial moved from scaffold to foundation while necromancers cast spells of undeath. What was conjured walked but did not breathe—the Many, forced to sacrifice more and more while the Few feasted and grew omnipotent.

Then Hope and Change transformed into a slogan and there were token victories. But positions moved ever polar and divisiveness bloomed. Heels of resentment dug in, drew lines, built barricades.

Then Snowden unveiled another truth, a secret lidless all-seeing Eye, the apparatus complete, still growing. It was benevolent, It was to protect us, they said. Concern and outrage but a spark—there then not. Criticism quickly surrendered to resignation as calls of alarm became victims, examples of Power’s dominion. The Eye would stay open.

Hope dwindled into a farce, the scent of Change just an air freshener.

Silent disillusionment fermented then soured over the years that followed. Demons thought slain rose from the remains. Calls for action that pandered to extremism and threatened privileges became a soul strategy. Effigies of fear and rage and yearning for the past sang lyrics that stoked the hearts of millions.

Yet we were told things were better. Recovering. Growing. But for who?

Son, Power doesn’t listen. Power rules. Power feeds itself. Power plays different characters but is simply a pendulum that swings to and fro. Power never surrenders the throne, it is overthrown by others seeking what it holds or it rots from within.

We wanted Change and it was time to choose. But Power divides, weakens the whole. Power, as it always has, dressed itself in two.

A new surrogate of progress. Those who favored predictability, those who weighed novelty over principal, those who were complacent, those who were resigned, those who leaned on strategy, those who were still unequal, rallied behind their savior.   

An unwieldy proxy posed as an outsider, an obscene wildcard. Those blinded by anger, those whose hate had been repressed, those whose privilege had been slighted, those who felt impotent and yearned for yesterday, stepped out of the dark and flocked. They were empowered by his wreckless light and their bitterness unfurled.

But most of us slept, drugged with apathy.

The stage was set. We chose. Rage and revenge won the day, claiming an illusional victory.

Power remains and plans to harness its champion. Power forgets the greatest threat is always within. Lust blinds, betrays.

Consequence is clear, its bite sharp. But only in hindsight. A gateway to nightmares untold is open and I’m afraid for you, my precious son.

I hope I am wrong.

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  • Kay van Dyke November 12, 2016, 9:50 am

    Cabot, Brilliant writing. I am happy to read this side of you. Also you didn’t say fuck once!!

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